Sometimes when your having your fucked up moment, and you can't think straight or do things like you usually do and people judge you like your in the wrong. You just feel like you're better off dead. Like they give a shit.
What's the point for trying to do all things right when you screw them up and you feel useless and faithless and you ended up getting wasted. Trying to get the pain away just So it will come right back and bite you. It feels like your trapped and your strings are pulled so tight, you can't move, You scream and you cry deep down inside you want to die, and yet no one seems to understand.
What's the point of smiling just to put a good show for the world to see like your alright. Just so they wont ask you stupid questions and make you want to cry because they remind you even before you start to breath.
I just don't understand why life is full of miseries. I know there are a billion more out there the same as me or much worse but even me, a misery can't help a fellow misery, cause i'm not strong enough to get on my own two feet.
I wish I have Miracle powers to heal the world and stop their pain and sufferings. They say that if you pray to God, and if it is his will he'll answer it. Please pray for me, so I may be a healer. I'll heal the whole world before I heal myself because Jesus Saved the whole world from sin.