I smile on the outside, like how the sun shines upon the earth but I die on the inside, like how the sun burns the soul. Life is so reprehensible. I can't wait to die and try to go to heaven. I don't think I do any good on earth, just probably sin a lot. When my time is right I'd go... The scars mean nothing anymore. Numb and Perished. I think I heal too fast, there is no scars to remind of. I've done it many times but the scars fade away. I need a tattoo, so that I can remind myself, of life. I still have to keep trying right?
I can't wait till I turn eighteen, maybe it would be the last birthday I ever have, and I want it to be special. I want him to be there not because he have to but he wants to... Kill me in a record shop, murder me in a mosh pit. I can't say much anymore, I'll just sit by the side line and slowly faed away. Till the sun rises till the sun sets. I live by everyday hoping for the best, but it never works. I love everyone who'd given me hope and life to live again. Don't ask me, just let me be. It's better off that way. I'm just invisible.
xoxo;
Avriel Babbles